3. The Pain and Misery of my addiction will go away.

3. The Pain and Misery of my addiction will go away.

This is something I would never think would be possible. In the depths of my disease, it’s easy to feel hopeless and not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but there is hope! 
Interestingly enough, this can be a good and bad thing. The attempts I had at getting sober in the past consisted of me getting into treatment, not getting high for a couple of days, I start to feel better and the pain and misery are almost forgotten...which inivetebly lead me back to a relapse. Now, I’m not saying that pain and misery are a good thing for recovery or that’s what’s keeping me sober. Quite the opposite; pain and misery are a great motivator to get me to stop. But somewhere in the journey, I needed to be led by positve things to ignite hope for a new and better life. I didn’t respond well (I don’t think many people do) to negative reinforcement of fearing a relapse or have pain and misery motivate my recovery on a daily basis. 

On the brighter side, it was a great suprise to realize that I didn’t have to live in a constant negative hopeless state of mind. What a feeling of gratitude it is to be able to be a part of society and have both good and bad days without being overwhelmed and swallowed up by depression and thoughts of suicide. 

So yes, the pain and misery of my disease does go away, and it can be replaced with positive/healthy state of mind which is indeed a miracle (act of a higher power) for a person who’s in the grips of addiction. In my experience, this is a pivotal part of recovery. Without this energy shift, I don’t know if I could remain sober or even begin a new and healthy lifestyle.